arron_wood

first step to adulthood

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 16:05:55 GMT

well i took a big step out on a limb and moved out from my dad's house this week. so far all is amazing, i love the feeling of freedom. with this new freedom i do realize comes a lot of responsibility, but i honestly think i am ready to handly it. this is just a stepping stone to move further away in the near future to a place that i want to make semi-permanet, atleast for now. well wish me luck everyone. :]

im 18. . . whoohoo.

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 15:39:13 GMT

Well another year has come and gone, a good year at that, and I am finally 18. the thing is I thought 18 would be so much more exciting than what it really is. I mean I already have done the tattoo thing, the weird piercings. So that’s not a big deal. I don’t smoke, chew, or really have any desire to buy lottery tickets or go to strip clubs. So all and all I have to say that 18 is somewhat a disappointment. I guess that’s why you should really never get your hopes up to high, about anything, because 99.9% of the time they are never what you expected.

fairly distant

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 15:34:30 GMT

I’ve sat here for the past ten minutes starring at this blank page trying to put some order to the words and thoughts that I have circling my mind. But for some reason I cannot transfer my feelings and thoughts into typed words. . . and I beginning to realize, words in general.
I always describe my self as fairly distant and completely independent, and for the most part that’s true, but everything has to have some reasoning or logic behind it right?
I think I am as distant and closed off to everyone, especially those that show great interest and/or love towards me, because I have been hurt so badly before. I know this may seem like a stupid reason to you, but it’s the truth. The worst feeling in the world is the feeling of deceit. Knowing that the person you spill your whole heart to and share every second of every day with does nothing but lie, cheat, and steal. It makes you feel worthless and unwanted, and angry, very very angry. Its like you wasted a whole part of your life on something that in the end amounts to nothing, nothing good that is.
Because of what I went through emotionally so long ago, other people suffer from it and no words could be apologetic enough towards those.

New School...whoohoo

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 15:52:27 GMT

well as of monday i have been going to the amazing Owen Valley high school. (sarcasim) well i guess its not all that bad, i just miss all of you guys back home. . . a lot. i guess thats it for now, but dont worry, i will keep you all updated! much love you guys.

The stars show no mercy?

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 15:12:49 GMT

why are we so interested in the stars? why is it relaxing or romantic to sit outside on a worm summer night and gaze at them? why do the stars show now mercy?

well, i haven't written anything in awhile.. yet again, maybe because nothing new has really happened. sure there is things that i WANT to happen, but no one gets lucky enought to get what they want... especially in my world. so what better way to explain what i want than to make a list, kind of like a Christmas list you used to make for Santa when you were younger. if any every happen i will be sure to up date you on it, but don't hold your breathe. well here it goes... My Want List:

...to be continued....

it never fails

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 17:27:13 GMT

its been forever since i have had the chance to spill my guts on the blank live journal page, so here it goes...

i feel like i have a problem with leading people one, even though i dont in any way mean to. is it because im too nice? i hope not. it never fails to have a really good friend end up liking me even after i tell him that i hate when guy friends do that...am i sending out the wrong vibes? should i even hang out with my guy friends?

i hate to hurt people but here lately thats the only thing i can do to get the point across, i want friends now, not a life long relationship. i am way to young to be committing myself 100% to someone, i need my space, my time, and my own room to breathe.

if i have hurt any of you in any way i am truely sorry, i am.

Drama and Stupidity

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 17:24:37 GMT

Well where to begin…

This week has been one of those stressful headache weeks. I have come to the conclusion that I do not understand a lot of people, and what exactly goes through their minds on a day to day basis. I have had some problems this last week that have really changed me in more ways than one, not necessarily physically, but mentally. It’s alter by way of viewing, and at that, trusting other people.

I don’t get why people try to cover up their mistakes by blaming them on some one else. That is actually what happened to me this week.

Marry and George were dating and Mary got mad and decided to sleep with Fred. Every one got mad a Mary for what she had done, so she had tried to focus the attention on someone else, me. Rumors were started that I was sleeping with a friend of mine while I was dating my boyfriend, and blah, blah, blah…

The point is, why can’t people just accept the fact that they are human and they make mistakes? No one is perfect, just don’t drag others into your own problems, it doesn’t make anything better and it only makes you look worse.

God or no God?

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 16:48:29 GMT

when you are bored do you seem to wonder about random things? i do. one of the major things i always find myself thinking about is the Bible, which is weird because I consider myself to be Agnostic.

proudly i can say that i have read the entire bible, it took awhile but i did it. so i do have some insight on the whole "theory" i just can't bring myself to believe in it. its all too contradicting to me. i mean for example; it all started with Adam and Eve, Eve screwed up so God punished her with making her bear children with Adam. Adam and Eve had three kids, all boys. in the bible it specifically states that Adam and Eve populated the world, but it also says that she ONLY had three kids. so it makes you wonder, where the heck did other people come from?

wow, i could go on and on on this subject, but i'd rather not right now...

Friends

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 22:55:37 GMT

Another boring day has come and passed….

I miss Bloomington, and all of my friends there so much. In some ways I wish we would have never moved. Its hard growing up in the same town with the same friends all your life and then one day just up and leaving. I’ve lived in Scottsburg now for a little over a year, and I am just now starting to make “good” friends. Better friends than what I had before. Its an amazing feeling just to know that people accept you and actually care about you.

Ouch!!!

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 17:06:32 GMT

so i gaged my ears again last night...well actually i gaged "one" of them. i went from a 8 to a 4 and it hurt so bad! i guess im just a pussy. but after i got the first one in i couldn't get the other one through!! so now i look really stupid...:{

well, this day seems quite long.....and boring. and it's only going to get more boring. god, i think i need a job, or something.

welp looks like schools going to over with in about two hours, yay. hopefully Trav will be off work by then!

my first....

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 16:22:06 GMT

well looks like i found yet another addiction, aside from Travis and Myspace. :} hmm...im not even sure what to write about though. im actually in school right now, yippee! (not) but i am so unbelievable tired. i stayed the night with Trav last night and at the most got two hours of sleep...but i would have done it all over again because i love spending all of my free time with him.

speaking of that, is it wierd that i am so into him this early in the relationship? I hope not. I just can't help it, its like we instantly connected and we have so much in common its rediculous!! but yea, he is pretty much amazing and i am honestly really happy about all of it.

im also really happy that it not raining for once!! haha well anyway i will keep all of you guys posted on my oh-so-exciting life! love you all!!! :}